Diva Loca

132 days

i have waited 132 days for tonight. 132 nights for something that was pure magic.

tonight i got to rock my baby boy to sleep in his nursery. under the stars. with josh groban serenading us as tears flowed down my face.

so much went into preparing our lives and our home for this baby. just his ceiling alone took well over 40 hours between the time denis spent on his stomach in the attic passing the nearly 400 fibre optic wires for the stars and the over 10 hours our muralist spent painting the perfect sky. tonight was the first time i got to sit in that room under those stars and enjoy with our little guy.

i have spent most of these 132 days in excrutiating pain. i herniated a disc that has been pressing on a nerve in childbirth. i have done most of my parenting from bed. particularly in the past six weeks or so. i've had to lie and watch as others feed, change and console him. rock him to sleep when he's sad. on the rare occasions when i was able to sit and rock him as a tiny baby i could never truly enjoy it because i was always in so much pain.i had to give up breastfeeding in favour of pain relief. that sucks.

but tonight was worth every second of pain.

i thought i was having a great day when earlier this evening i could walk into physio without my walking stick at a "normal" pace. no shuffling in agony. little did i know what was ahead of me.

tonight is just the first of many nights that our little man and i will spend under the stars just dreaming of what lies ahead.

 

as i held our sweet hunter i couldn't help but think of another young family in ottawa on the news tonight. their little baby charlotte was born 11 days ago with her organs outside of her body. her mom and dad have never held her. tonight she is sleeping in the nicu as the angel nurses and doctors work to heal her. i remember when hunter was in hospital all i wanted to do was rip those wires off his frail little body and hold him and rock him. i was one of the lucky mamas. i didn't have to wait that long to do so. tonight we wished upon the stars that soon charlotte will be in her mom and dad's arms where she belongs.

tonight hold your babies however big or small just a little tighter because you can. not all mamas and papas are as lucky as you are...

 

happy birthday daddy!

today was d's birthday. the lucky duck was the first one to celebrate a birthday with the hunterooni. we've been practising saying "happy birthday daddy" and "bonne fete papa" over and over again so he said it LOTS to daddy today!

tonight we celebrated with some cake and a little photo shoot (d has those pics, i just snapped a few with my phone).

someone was pretty happy to be celebrating his dad's birthday (probably because hunter got a gift too)!

does he look like his daddy or what? a lady at physio tonight was saying that and i said "yup, no need for a dna test here. good thing too because i didn't really feel like going on jerry springer or maury!"

we sure do love you around these parts daddy and we think you are simply the best!!!

four months!

four months? how did that happen? it seriously feels like we JUST did his 3 month photo shoot and here we are another month down.

what a month it has been. he is really growing quickly and developing his own super awesome personality.

here is a quick rundown of the past month...

He celebrated his first Auntie's day by Skyping his Auntie "Tee" in Winnipeg wearing the shirt she gave him...

  he LOVES his "friends." every morning he wakes up and talks to his buddies for the longeset time. he is so excited to tell them what happened overnight. he still spends most of his playtime talking to them and occasionally reading them a story...

he is SUCH a daddy's boy. as soon as Denis walks in the room, Hunter can sense him there and immediately turns his head to find him and inevitably gives him a big smile. sometimes he'll be fussy with me and as soon as he sees denis it turns his mood right around. even as he's getting his diaper changed he just stares up at D and beams. it is the sweetest thing to see...he's lucky he's got such an incredible daddy...

he is still such a happy pants and loves to smile. he's even giggling now and it is just the SWEETEST sound to hear. he loves to be tickled and when i pretend to sneeze!

but sometimes he gives us his sad rabbit face and it just BREAKS OUR HEARTS...

oh and he still comes by his nickname HUNTEROONI FARTOOTSKI honestly!!!

he is still rockin' an awesome fauxhawk!

he learned how to order a beer he is sitting in his bumbo and his exersaucer and FINALLY his mamaroo. he's even going in the swing once in a while. his world has just really opened up.

he loves to get dressed up and go places like the market, visiting his great grandmaman turpin in perth and hanging out at the local coffee shop with daddy while mama is at physio. he and daddy sure are meeting lots of the locals because they just can't resist his adorable face!

he watched himself on his very first national tv appearance on Kortney and Dave By Request.

he loooooves to sleep. he is still only waking up once a night for a feeding and he naps lots during the day. he will sleep anytime and anywhere, in the car, in a restaurant, when we are out and about...it doesn't matter how loud or how bright, the kid loves his zzzzzzs. during the day he loves falling asleep with either a blanket or my arm on the top of his head or while hugging one of his friends (preferably eebee). he also has a thing for snuggling into my armpit (must get that from his father!).

the poor peanut has started teething so now he has rosy cheeks and is a little fussier than usual. it's so hard to see our little man in pain, but we have figured out a few natural products to help him through it.

he has turned our world upside down in the very best way possible. we could not have custom ordered a more perfect baby for our family. i'm so looking forward to seeing what the next month holds for us...